Guess Who’s Back?

My dear Friends! I hope you have not forgotten about little ol’ Pie because I most certainly have not forgotten about you! I have been MIA for a good hunk of time and that needs to change! This last year was my freshman year of college so now I return to you are a wise, mature, worldly, blah, blah, blah, blah, just kidding XD I am still me! I just have one year’s worth of new experiences to add to my list. It is summer time and I was randomly thinking about Teddy and my blog and it hit me that I hadn’t checked up on you all in quite some time! I was wondering if you have any questions in particular? Do you have any POTS related questions? Or college? Or love? Or staying positive? Or exercise related questions? ANYTHING you need some advice on! I don’t care if it is about what shirt to wear today or what movie to see. Teddy and I love helping out (Granted, I am not sure how helpful it is if I help pick out a movie for you….but I am more than willing!). We want this blog to relate and pertain to your life! We want to be able to help you in any way we can. We live with POTS and have individually lived with many different stages of this illness and we want to help you in whatever stage you are at 🙂 We send our love and keep us posted on what you want to see in the future!

Much love,

Pie

Fashion Gurus

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Hello my fashionable friends! Pie here! I thought it would be a splendid idea to share with you one of the things that has been making me a happy pie! A couple months ago I discovered fashion gurus on youtube. What is a fashion guru? I didn’t know either! Basically it is when someone dedicates their youtube account solely to fashion, makeup,tutorials, and such. Their videos range from make-up tutorials to do it yourself tutorials to fashion hauls. Fashion hauls are my favorite because I am not obsessed with makeup at this point in my life. This might change but for now I am really enjoying the jewelry and clothing. As you may or may not know…I make jewelry! I love seeing different types of jewelry without having to go to the mall. And like a lot of girls I like cute clothes. It is nice knowing what stores have what and learning about the latest fashion trends. I wanted to share with you my newest findings.

I only know a few people with POTS but collectively we all find that we need some sort of distraction to numb our brains. Things like video games, the interweb and television. I watch these videos when I am taking a break. Shall we start??

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First! Michelle Phan

http://www.youtube.com/user/MichellePhan?feature=watch

here is your linkage! She is one of the most well known of the fashion gurus I am going to introduce you to. Her knowledge of makeup and style is amazing. On her channel she shows her viewers how to achieve impressive costume makeup and also so many cute little beauty tricks and tips. She even has music videos!  Out of all of the people I am showing you today Michelle knows the most about beauty.  I totally recommend her! She even has the right voice. For me personally I can’t listen to youtubers that have irritating voices! They drive me crazy…as mean as that sounds. Michelle’s voice is calm, cool, and collected. She makes makeup seem easy and fun. It is her canvas! I love it! Here is a little video to get started!

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Second! ARose186!

Arden is completely hilarious! She is a spunky, stylish, wacky high schooler who loves fashion. Her blog includes everything! Thrifting, make-up tutorials, favorite products, clothing hauls (Which is just showing their newest clothing finds), DIY’s, outfit of the days, and much much more! I will admit sometimes I don’t know how she can pull of the crazy clothes she buys! But she manages!  She will make you laugh! I love her energy! She has hundreds of videos! Her channel gives you the opportunity to pick and chose what fits your taste. Here is a little introductory video! Who else could better explain Arden than..Arden?

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Third! Clothesencounters

http://www.youtube.com/user/clothesencounters

Jen’s style is extremely unique! She is one cool cat. A lot of her wardrobe consists of thrift store outfits and she rocks them. She and ARose186 both love THRIFTING and are very successful in their findings. She understands how to make old clothes stylish and work for you.  I don’t know how to explain this but Jen is the kind of girl you want as a friend. She has this easiness about her personality and an inspiring outlook on life. She is fashion forward and like the other two ladies she also has GREAT VIDEOS!  Here is a little push to get you started

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Fourth! Michele1218

http://www.youtube.com/user/michele1218

Michele is the person who got me hooked on beauty videos! She is not to be mistaken for Michelle Phan (different person) I will admit I can’t relate as much to this Michele because a lot of her clothes are for the working woman. And me, being a high schooler who babysits….can’t relate. Doesn’t mean you won’t! I still really enjoy her site! She has the largest makeup collection I have ever seen….come to think of it she has a lot of large collections! My favorite parts about her channel are her jewelry and her clothing hauls. She is adorable! The things she buys on  are a little bit more on the pricey side. It is still really fun to watch! Surprise surprise here is a jewelry video by Ms. Michele herself!

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Fifth! EssieButton

http://www.youtube.com/user/essiebutton

Essie is funny 🙂 I like her so much. She is adorable! She is constantly acting like she doesn’t know what she is doing filming beauty videos but she is so good at it! I feel like I am talking to a friend while watching her videos. I just discovered her the other day. Her awkward nature is endearing. She lives in the UK but is from Canada. So she says aboot like a good Canadian! And also probably says sorry as sohrry (My friend asked me if I was canadian because of how I say sorry) Here is the first video I ever watched by Essie! Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tyrd_Bt8pvE

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I give you five new friends! To help you on your journey of fashion! I totally understand if you don’t get hooked on each one, I just hope that at least one will fit your style. Do not feel too overwhelmed with all of this linkage, that is why I stuck to only five links. Five completely different woman who make fashion even more fun! It is like having our very own team of project runway designers at our fingertips! YAY! You can still do things in your life to make yourself feel beautiful! I know some days it is hard to even leave the house. I wear P.J.s 90% of the time. Teddy lately has been prancing around in all sorts of adorable outfits, hairstyles, and makeups. It is really fun looking nice for school or an outing! A cute outfit or hairstyle will make you feel better! You might even get a boost of energy alongside a boost of confidence! Just because we have an invisible syndrome it doesn’t mean we have to feel invisible or unattractive. In actuality we look pretty normal so….we can still look supermegafoxyawesomehot even if we feel like CRAP! Take that world! Here we come. If you can’t take that step yet, order an adorable pair of pajamas and rock them around the house. The other day I found a pair of pajamas that were….wait for it….pink and covered in cats! I know how cool am I? They are awesome! I am a big fan of them! It’s all good when you are wearing a bucket load of cats on your pants. What could be better? Nutthing that’s what!

Thanks for reading my dear reader! You make Teddy and I so happy! It is the best feeling in the world to come home to a new comment or follower! Thanks for adding sunshine into our lives! Good luck tomorrow! Mondays can be hard! Have an amazing week 🙂

Lots of Love

Pie                       P.S. This is one of my own drawings/ paintings down below! I thought it fit the theme of this blog 🙂

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Shout Out

MIK's dysautonomia hidden heart alliance

Hey guys!

This is Teddy. I haven’t mentioned this in the past, but I follow a bunch of fellow bloggers on wordpress. Some of which are you, dear readers! Anyways, there’s a blog from a Texas family that does events to help POTS teens in their area! It’s really awesome. If I lived closer I would definitely participate. One of their events this week is a questionnaire about what it’s like and how you’ve grown through your POTS journey. It’s called “Be one of our featured bloggers”! This is a great opportunity if you don’t have a blog, but want to share your story. Or (if you’re like me) are inspired by the questions and want to support young men and women across the web who feel like they’re alone. I put the link directly underneath and I hope you guys fill it out!

http://mikshiddenheartsalliance.wordpress.com/2013/02/23/dysautonomia-teens-be-one-of-our-featured-bloggers/

Since I already have a blog, I’m guessing they probably won’t choose to feature me. So I decided to just post my answers on here, as well as sending them in.

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Guest Blogger for MIK’s Hidden Heart Alliance For Dysautonomia

We would love to hear from you!  Fill out the questions below, include picture(s) and email to:  info@mikshiddenhearts.org.  A big thank you to fellow blogger Dysautonomiac for the question inspiration : ) 

1. The illness I live with is:

Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS)

2. I was diagnosed with it:

I was seventeen and diagnosed at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester.

3. I first noticed my symptoms when :

 16, I got out of the bathtub one day and the next thing I know I’m on the ground, naked and shivering, trying not to pass out. I didn’t know I was lightheaded or sick. It just felt like my mind was floating a good two inches above my heavy head.

4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: 

 Hah, asking for help. I’m bullheaded to the extreme and there are some days I pretend to be strong and able to carry a heavy package or go down a flight of stairs. It doesn’t usually work, and my good friends have learned to intercept my stupidity.

5. Most people assume:

 That I have a phobia of stairs and love high, flamboyant socks.

6. The hardest part about “not so good” days are:

 Feeling like I am a burden on everyone. That I haven’t accomplished anything and the day was a waste.

7. Prior to me getting sick, I liked to:

Play tennis. I was the team captain and number one girl player in high school. Last time I tried to play I ended up in bed for two weeks it made me so ill.

8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is:

 My laptop. I named him Giles from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. He’s incredibly useful for the days I can’t move and need something to do.

9. The hardest parts about the nights are:

 Needing to go to bed at around 9:00. In college, no one goes to sleep until about 1 in the morning and I always feel like I’m missing something.

10. Each day I take approximately __ pills & vitamins. 

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11. Regarding alternative treatments I include:

 Massage, weird muscle building exercises my dad comes up with, anti-embolism stockings, and a high sodium diet with lots of water.

12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible illness I would choose:

It depends on the day. When I feel truly sick and someone walks by and tells me how great I look I tend to get a bit snarky and wish they could see what I was really dealing with. In some ways, I’m glad that it’s invisible. It means I can fly under the radar and can choose whom I tell. Then again, I’ve been lucky. When I’ve chosen to confide in people I trust, no one has ever doubted it’s a legitimate problem and I’m not just being lazy. Having an invisible illness is the best and worst thing about POTS.

13. Regarding school, I am homebound/homeschooled/attend at school and I find this:

 Frustrating. Being too sick to have a full class schedule makes me feel upset and anxious that my brain is going to mush. I’m taking two classes from the community college now and it’s getting a little better.

14. People would be surprised to know:

 I really hate cucumbers and watching on-screen kissing. It just grosses me out.

15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been:

 Feeling out of control. I had to really look at myself and realize that just because I couldn’t do something it didn’t mean I had failed.

16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was:

 Blog. My sister and I have a blog called “The Misses POTS” (https://themissespots.wordpress.com/) I never anticipated the blessing that it turned out to be. Every single time someone liked, or commented on a post saying “I feel the same way” was this incredible validation that all our struggles and work meant something.

17. I feel that the general awareness about my condition is:

 Getting increasingly better. I’ve met people like nurse practitioners at my school who were completely aware what my condition entailed and were incredibly sympathetic. That, plus there’s been this huge surge of bloggers in the past few years that are really optimistic and informative. We started out being one of the only blogs that tried to explain our condition as well as embrace our lives. Now, there’s a ton. My blog roll gets longer by the day.

18. Something I really miss doing since I became ill is:

 Tennis. My whole family plays all the time and I really miss that competitive camaraderie.

19. It was really hard to have to give up:

 Cheese and chocolate. POTS gave me a stomach problem that meant I have to be really careful with my diet.

20. A new hobby / goal I have taken up since my diagnosis is:

 Cooking. It takes me a bit longer since I have to rest in the middle of recipes, but I love it. It gives this incredible sense of accomplishment.

21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would:

 Get up early to go to church, and then make an elaborate brunch with my family and friends. A huge game of Ultimate Frisbee with my friends from university would follow that would last for hours. Later that afternoon I would read a really great book. That night I’d play a great game of RISK/Settlers of Catan/other take over the world game with my brothers, sisters, and cousins. Then, I’d go and get a midnight burrito at the base of my university.

22. My illness has taught me:

 How little control we actually have over our lives. And how much of a blessing it is when we do get to succeed in a small aspect of it.

23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is:

 “You look great! Are you a lot better now?”

24. But I love it when people:

 A family friend said the other day “You have done a wonderful job of making yourself look well.” She gave me a hug and it was so flattering that she realized what an effort it is to look pretty.

25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is:

 “People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyways.

If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyways.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyways.

If you find security and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyways.

The good you do today will often be forgotten. Do good anyways.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyways.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyways.”

-Mother Teresa

26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them:

 The first year of being sick is not indicative how the rest of your life is going to be. I promise. The friends you will lose due to misunderstanding, you will gain back. All those things you have to give up, some of them you will eventually learn how to incorporate back into your life. Not all of them, but some. And you will realize things you love you would have never known about if you were as active as you once were. Make sure you realize we are not entitled to health or happiness. Every clear thought, every happy moment, every day you can do some exercises, is a blessing. Treat it as such. They’re small victories. And every time you are stuck in bed for days on end, or have to cancel a Skype date or meeting with a friend? They’re not failures. They’re not your fault. You are not to blame. Be open with the people around you. Shutting out the world will just make you hurt all the more inside.

27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is:

 You can’t just “get through it” or pretend like your body and feelings don’t matter. You have to tell people how you feel and respect your body.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was:

 There have been so many, it’s impossible to pick one. When I got seriously ill this fall and had to go home for surgery, I had this outpouring of love. The kids I taught Sunday School made home made cards, my best friends at school helped my mom pack up my dorm room for me and made a poster with little notes, jokes, Bible verses, and conversations all over it. I definitely cried when I saw it. I’ve never felt so loved by people outside my family before.

29. The person(s) who has been there for me and I could not do without is:

 My mother. She can read my face like a book, and if I’m the least bit pale she rushes off and gets me something to drink like a Gatorade. Plus, she’s endlessly supportive and has sat in every waiting room with me. My family in general is incredible. My dad constantly has a new idea to add to my exercise regimen, my sister Pie never lets me drive when I feel a little sick, and my other brothers and sister are just really supportive and loving. I’m so grateful I’ve never had to try and prove I’m sick. They just believe me, without question. Also, I have a group of friends who text me every single day, and Skype me every week. I love them all so much.

30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel:

Hopeful that someone can remember we don’t stop being who we are just because we’re sick. We don’t stop being important or part of God’s plan.

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I also wanted to send a shout our to fellow bloggers (POTS or not) that I follow and enjoy reading, so I think I’ll start a blog roll (super behind the times on this one). Until that happens, these are some great blogs!

Stretchy Hannah A sincerely nice girl who lives in England with POTS and EDS. She’s awesome, and is really upbeat without avoiding the messy stuff of life.

Mik’s Hidden Hearts Alliance For Dysautonomia I don’t generally read this one as much, but if you’re considering starting some sort of POTS community you should take a leaf out of their book! It’s really great for inspiration.

The Brain Hamster This one is hard to explain. The author is a sci-fi writer who explores his Christian faith as well as a really funny and wry view on life.

Elegant Ellie’s Personal World Ok, this is a girl who I would definitely want to be friends with in real life. She’s witty and cynical and has fantastic taste in literature, music, and TV shows. Plus she collects medical problems like no one’s business so I think a lot of you guys would have aspects of her life in common. She posts a couple times a day it seems like, she’s definitely been getting me to write more.

Got No Milk Lots of recipes for those of us who have trouble with eating high fat food, or just dairy products in general. I actually followed this before I had belly problems so…. beware. It might cast a curse upon you.

Suzie Sweet Tooth To heck with eating things that don’t make me sick. To heck with health foods! This blog is AMAZING. Every bakers dream. Right here.

FISBI *cough* this one is a little awkward. I love Sim blogs. They write stories using screen shots from their sim accounts. This writer is my favorite. I could have included maybe five more like hers, but I thought she was a good representation.

Heatherhdoucet a sassy POTS mother who always makes me laugh with her posts.

Letters From Wiscalia An actual friend in real life. She’s just starting to blog so if you want to pop in and give her some tips or encouragement that would be great!

Dignitas Magazine A magazine for young Catholic women. The articles are actually amazing and the pictures beautiful. They haven’t published in awhile, but I’m holding out hope!

Well, that’s all I have for today. Adieu!

Be Well,

Teddy

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There’s nothing to do here…

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“There’s nothing to do here,

some just whine and complain

in bed in the hospital

coming and going

asleep and awake

in bed at the hospital

tell me the story

of how you ended up here

I’ve heard it all in the hospital…” -Hospital Beds by Cold War Kids

This be Teddy.

Dude. Doctors Offices suck. Don’t get me wrong, I love the hospital. Going on rounds with my dad (Dr. Papa) is one of my favorite things to do. He explains all the syndromes and what not in layman terms and the nurses have the best sense of humor. I saw two in a fight one time (not unusual) and finally one snapped, “Oh go wipe some butt!” and that’s what she went off (presumably) to do. No nonsense. There was also an extensive debate in which case my dad was called over to hear the case about a nurse who had taken one jelly donut more than her allotment. Heaven forbid!

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But doctors offices are an entirely different kettle of fish. The walls are white, they’re filled with the elderly and dying (not that we feel any better, but they often look like they’re dying of TB…), and the fluorescent lights are murder on our autonomic nervous systems. The only medical place that’s worse is the testing lab. At testing centers the nurses are CRAZY! At least in my experience. You may have had a nice, sane nurse draw your blood at a testing lab. Normal flobotomists are kind, it’s the testing centers that make them go psychotic. I almost growled at my last one, she refused to go near a cellphone. Inwardly, I said, “There are people surviving apartheids and genocides world wide. I think you can handle an electronic device.” But I refrained. And it had nothing to do with the needle she was holding above my arm. Obviously.

Excuse my rant. That little encounter was what inspired me to write this post actually. It just reinforced my slight distaste for waiting rooms of all kinds. Which led to the next question, how do we make them better?

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My research led me online. Surely there must be clever anecdote there. But it was soon clear to me that these people had never spent extensive time in a waiting room. Or in any sort of public place for that matter. Ideas ranged from stealing some poor old elderly person’s wheelchair and zooming about to pretending to have multiple personality disorder. Erm, I dunno about you guys, but I’ll pass. So I suppose my suggestions will go about the more practical lines.

1. Bring water, a jacket, and a bag. The offices are often freakishly cold.

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2. Bring some clementines, trailmix, or something else that’s sweet and filling. Depending on how much blood the nurse draws, you may get a wee bit dizzy. Protein and sugar generally help.

3. Ipod, Zune, or whatever you kids use to listen to these days. Oldies and Bluegrass are not my thing and nurses seem to have an affinity for them. Wear earbuds, not headphones. That way you can unplug one ear and listen for the nurse to call your name. Nothing is more embarrassing than having a nurse say, “Teddy? ….Teddy?……UM EXCUSE ME IS THERE A MISS TEDDY HERE?”

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4. Now for the fun stuff : ) Bring something that delights your spirit. 9 times out of 10 you won’t know anyone there so you needn’t impress them with your lofty choice of literature. I like Meg Cabot books, especially ones that have pink hearts all over them. I’m not super girly, but romance novels are a weakness.

Also, the gameboy. Pie and I should do a post about Nintendo DS games, they’re very useful for waiting rooms. I personally like Pokemon. Soul Silver and Heart of Gold are phenomenal remakes that make me kind of nostalgic for the original Pokemon games. Dagnabit, this post is really letting my dorkiness out of the bag.

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5. This goes along with the last one, but it really is my favorite new thing. My iphone5. It’s glorious. Useful beyond measure. Delicate, yet packed with useful items. So at this point, I just bring it and a pair of headphones. I know I just recommended ear buds, but every time I buy them they die within two months. So I’ve just decided to stick with my trusty old bomber headphones. They’re candy apple red, and have somehow lasted me 2 1/2 years. Best 40 dollars of my life. If you have earbuds that don’t somehow spontaneously combust, have at them.

What everyone has been raving about for years, are smartphone apps. So I am clearly not exactly on the cutting edge here. But, since I’ve only been rejoicing for a few grand months, these are my favorites thus far.

A. Facebook: needs no explanation

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B. Pandora: lets you listen to your custom stations for free while using other applications. I listen to my account probably more often then I listen to my jam-packed iTunes library.

C. Kindle: Yes, it’s a tiny screen. But the font isn’t that difficult to read and it downloads books honestly faster than my actual kindle does. Plus you can disguise those embarrassing romance novels.

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D. My Ancient Greek app: I’ve been lugging about my textbook for months now, and I feel so guilty every time I don’t read it. My Greek class is the highlight of my university curriculum, and I miss it dearly. Unfortunately, as with any language, it’s easy to forget. Especially dead languages since you don’t speak them. Ever really. This app is cool, because it’s rather like being quizzed with multiple choice flashcards. It has about ten vocabulary words per level that it cycles through in different formats. It has 110 levels!!!! I think I’m on level 5… just to give you an idea. Anyways, I’m not saying you should all learn ancient Greek, but it’s really nice to reassure yourself that your brain hasn’t completely gone to mush with some sort of stimulus.

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E. Netflix: I can stream a movie or two a month on my allotted gigabyte usage and there are some days where you just need a Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode.

Ok, I’m majorly out of inspiration. In the end, waiting rooms are the epitome of uninteresting. So, basically, how do you make your waiting count? Because if I have to play another game of I Spy with Pie I might growl at a little old lady. Yeah, you heard me. I hope you don’t have any appointments today and feel energetic and joyful!

Be well,

Teddy

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Good Day!

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Good day, dear Readers!

I have to cease making internet promises, I simply do not keep them. Today I woke up with smile on my face and going about whistling so I thought I’d say hello. The past few weeks have been a bit of a struggle. I’ve been going back and forth to the Mayo Clinic again to check up on my POTS as well as my poor belly. I had another tilt table test!  I was exceedingly tetchy about it. I also had to fast all day which turns me…. rather grumpy.

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They put me on two weeks of a new drug, which could reset my stomach. Unfortunately it so far has just given me days of pain. But, I’ve had some lovely diversions which I would like to share with you.

First of all, while I am a little bit of a slowpoke when it comes to internet technologies. I made a pinterest a few months ago, and have enjoyed it immensely. Initially, I thought it was some sort of website for hopeless romantics to look at bridal pictures. But after Pie got one, I kept sneaking on hers until I got one of my own. So, if you would like to look at pleasant pictures, here are the links to both of ours! You’ll get to know us a little better I think, which is the only real reason I put them up here.

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I’d love to see any of your pinterest boards if you would like to share them. I think observing what others find beautiful is quite informative. I’m not a huge fan of cheesy sayings, but if there’s one and Benedict Cumperbatch (Sherlock) is in the background I’ll blush and pin it. He’s rather handsome you see.

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I’ve hooked my whole family on Sherlock and am inordinately pleased about it. They’re all on Netflix instant play, so you really ought to watch it if you enjoy witty dialogue and a beautifully filmed adaptation of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle’s works. To be perfectly honest, I didn’t like the books. They often completely skipped the realm of reason and had Sherlock make leaps with no feasible intuition whatsover. “There’s a footprint! It must belong to a specific individual who has just escaped their Mormon compound in Utah who is on a trip to avenge their dead fiance!” I didn’t make that plot up. You can’t improve that sort of ridiculousness. Granted, “The Hound of the Baskervilles” was good, and I love the modern day adaptations where we can follow the actors line of reasoning.

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*Cough* Moving on.

My favorite thing about Pinterest is actually my board for recipes. I called in “Pornography for the Palate”, just for a bit of tongue in cheek/risque humor. Oh, tongue in cheek. That’s rather a good pun. Anyways, I use lots of online recipes along with my cookbooks and it’s murder to find them again. I’ve tried most of them on my page, but not all. My favorite is a recipe for “Outrageous Brownies” by the barefoot contessa. I messed about with it a bit and I am confident that they are truly the best brownies I could possibly concoct. I add a bit of cinnamon, a dash of almond extract, and cut the instant coffee mix down to one tablespoon for a truly perfect blend of flavors. My dad eats them for breakfast.

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/ina-garten/outrageous-brownies-recipe2/index.html

They turn out a LOT better than the picture, but you do have to cool them and let them harden into more of a fudge consistency.

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I’ve read on quite a few POTS and other chronic illness blogs complaints about how difficult it is to cook. I couldn’t agree more. The only reason I put up with the absurd idea of standing is this innate need to see something accomplished in my day. I’m a doer. Reading a book counts as doing something, as does going to the supermarket. But often my mind is too foggy to read a book, and driving isn’t quite an option.  So I keep canisters of flours and sugars and a whole host of food that doesn’t go bad quickly. I didn’t start cooking until I was 17, and it was horrid. I would feel so ill afterwords I couldn’t do my daily exercise. Plus, Pie and mum are quite healthy eaters so they weren’t thrilled with the plethora of pastries. So I started making healthy dinners instead from scratch. I know I shouldn’t, but I do feel rather guilty when I can’t help out around the house. There were so many months I never left my desk and my bed wasn’t made. So cooking for me is a way to give back to my family. I can’t carry the 50 lb bags of grain for the horses anymore, and for a long time I couldn’t muck the horse stalls. That’s still an iffy task even now. Sometimes I have to put a chair with wheels in the middle of the kitchen and wheel about to the different bowls and stove. We all want to feel useful, even if we feel often ill. So if you can think of little things to make yourself feel useful, I would recommend it. Even if it’s just watering the houseplants, one at a time. I don’t mean to be insensitive if you’re stuck in bed. I’ve been there, you just have to take one day at a time. You learn your limits, and how to live within your energy means.

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I would like to introduce you to my new favorite thing of the week, The Lizzie Bennet Diaries. As you may know, I am a literary cliche. One of my favorite books of all time is Pride and Prejudice. I own several movie adaptations (Including the 6 hour one) and think Pride & Prejudice & Zombies is brilliant. So you won’t be terribly surprised that I gleefully stumbled on a vlog of a modern day Elizabeth Bennet narrating her story. The vlog is done by professional actors, and they make their characters so real it’s mind boggling. The characters chat (as themselves!) on Facebook, Pinterest, Twitter, etc. and have multiple video channels about their interactions. Lizzie Bennet is getting her masters in communications while living at home. Her mother is a southern belle obsessed with getting her daughters married off, each having a picket fence and 2.5 grandchildren. I love her best friend Charlotte (dressed above imitating Mr. Bennet), Lizzie is clever and judgemental (on the left dressed as her mother),

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her sister Jane beautiful and so sweet you feel like she’s your very best friend,

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and Lydia (the combination of Kitty and Lydia) is a partygirl you roll your eyes at and simultaneously feel rather badly for. The story fits seamlessly into modern day, and each episode is only a few minutes long. It really is the ideal distraction when you can’t think and need a few minute (or a few hour) break in the day. Plus, they took the hapless Bingly and turned him into Bing Lee the medical student. Genius? I think so.

Not everyone likes it, and I must say I think they went a little too far in the wrong direction with their interpretation of Lizzie. But, all things considered, it is a two minutes well spent. Plus it has been featured in articles from the web and newspapers alike to great acclaim. I hope you enjoy it!

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Well, this post is the result of what happens when I sit down on a rainy day with a mug of hot chocolate. This has hardly been an informative or sensible post, but I do hope you enjoyed reading it. It’s nice to write about things that make me smile. I hope they make you smile too. What do you all do on a rainy day with the web at your fingertips and a hot beverage by your side? I hope you’re having as good a day as I am, and you will hear from me again soon!

Be Well,

Teddy

P.S. Pie is well, but she just started her varsity tennis season and is vying for captaincy  so she’s monstrously busy. But she’s quite well and says hello : )

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V Day!

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Happy Valentines Day!

Despite the fact that this day usually makes me cynical and cranky (pink is really not my favorite color), this year has been rather exemplary. Because it’s an opportunity (kind of like Christmas) to surprise the ones you love. Since there’s no one special in my life, I get to give out valentines to whomever I darn well please, yourself included.

And by giving our Valentines, I mean scanning Pinterest and finding lovely pictures that invoke smiles : )

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I gave this one to Pie! Mostly because I love Sherlock.

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This to my mom, we watch Downton Abbey together. We both bawled our eyes out when Sybil died so I figured it was appropriate. Also, my mom had eclampsia with Pie! Oh, dark humor.

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My dad LOVES Firefly (as do Pie and I)

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Small warning, most of these will be from Downton Abbey. It’s one of my favorite shows and has the best Valentine memes!

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I’m pretty sure my mom would be up for this.

valentine downton abbeyAnd on to a plethora of Game of Thrones valentines!!

game of thrones valentinesHodor is my favorite ❤

firefly valentineWell, that’s all I’ve got! Bake some cookies, eat candy, and have a happy Valentines day everyone!

Love,

Teddy

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Fuzzy SuperVitiminC Man

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Hey guys! What’s going on? It is Pie by the way. I thought I would write a post while I am experiencing a wondrous head cold. It is too much fun and just begging to be blogged about. So…you know how this year’s version of the flu is especially bad? Yes? No? Well, it is! This was the first year that I said,  “Mom I am not getting a flu shot.”  I told her this because the past two times I got a flu shot I came down with a TERRIBLE, AWFUL, DISGUSTING Cold….. yuck! I am officially 18 so in my mind not getting my annual flu shot was a big deal. I’m 18 I can make one independent decision maybe? Possibly? Yes? I put my footie down! But of course the universe laughed at me because now there is a flu epidemic. I have POTS and asthma so coming down with the flu really would be quite the traumatic  experience. I ended up getting the dreaded flu shot. Let me just explain this one thing, I do not mind getting shots. I have had so many shots and needles drinking up my blood to be tested that I am pretty used to it. They truly don’t bother me until I get a cold after having a flu shot. That is when Pie gets irritated. I got this flu shot at my local grocery store this past monday….(exactly a week from today). I did not realize that right next to the frozen goods  was a little tiny waiting room with a T.V. playing relaxing music and showing images of happy fish swimming in a reef. Was that supposed to make me feel better about getting a shot that would give me a cold?

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The lady at the front desk gave me a clip board with all of these questions I needed to answer. Goodness gracious that was hard! I hadn’t the slightest idea what they were asking me. When I finished  filling out the pop quiz that I failed I waited in the waiting room. I think the exotic fish were mocking me. Oh yes pie this is a happy happy place. We will take good care of you. This is the last time I trust fish! When the pharmacist came in we talked for a few minutes and I just happened to mention that I always got sick after I got a flu shot. She told me that wasn’t possible. All of my doctors always tell me it is impossible to get the flu from the flu shot because it is a dead virus….but I always get sick that week! Coincidence? I think not dear sir!  I think not! Do my doctors sign an oath promising they won’t  tell a soul that they are injecting viruses into their patients?

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So I got the shot from my grocery store’s pharmacist it did not hurt one bit. It was practically painless. Weirdly enough…when I walked out she told me to wait around the store for five to ten minutes in case I had a reaction or started feeling sick. I laughed in my head when she said this because I have never ever heard someone say this! Teddy and my Mom had been to the same pharmacy three days earlier and they weren’t held hostage! Do you know what I did when she said this? I nodded and just walked right on out of there! I live so close to my grocery store that by the time I would show symptoms I would be home.

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After four days I was pretty positive this magical food store flu shot was heaven sent! I felt fine! Totally fine. Happy Pie! What did they put in that shot? Virus fighting veggies? SuperVitiminC Man? Cheese? Happiness? Yup I felt fine. Maybe a little tired? But that is normal for me. I had a birthday party friday night and I noticed I was losing my voice  a bit. I thought it was because I am such a chatterbox. The next day (saturday) my throat was really rough and raspy like a rockstar. I was pretty tired but staying up late does that to POTS peeps. But when Sunday came I knew! I KNEW WHAT WAS WRONG! I had my Momma check that sore rockstar throat and do you know what she found? I will give you a hint it wasn’t SuperVitiminC MAN! My throat was red with little white dots! GASP! NO! What? That can’t be possible? Grocery store shot? I trusted you. You were supposed to keep me safe. **cries**

Yeah so Pie is sick. Shocker. Want to hear something ironic? Flu shots take two weeks to work! Come on! This is a weird cold because I don’t have a stuffy nose (thank goodness) I do have a sore throat and I am very dizzy. My head feels like someone scooped out my brain and filled my head to the brim with cotton balls. To quote…You’ve Got Mail I feel fuzzy. That is the only way I can describe how I am feeling. How is Pie today? Fuzzy? Absolutely positively fuzzy thank you dear reader and yourself?

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This weekend I am finishing up my art portfolio and it is a challenge. I feel way too fuzzy for this! I am feverish and icky. For some reason when I get a cold my brain gets scared of random things. Yesterday Teddy and I were playing our Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets computer game (Are you jealous of our awesomeness? Playing a game made for 10 year olds?) She had her hair up in a pony tail and she was sitting in an office chair and her pony tail kept moving in a weird way and kept scaring me! I don’t know why!! It looked like a cat or something? Or a rat? Ahhh * hides in corner**  Then later that day I was walking over to our couch and a pair of UGGs scared the  heebie jeebies out of me.

I feel so strange 😦 And I wanted to share my adventures with you. Because you understand my pain. Now…my Mother just informed me that I probably didn’t get sick from my flu shot. Okay… Teddy and I did have a friend over who ended up getting sick this week and when I went to that birthday party my other friend was feeling sick. But….it had to be the flu shot right? Sadly I have to wait another week until I am immune to the flu. Universe stop teasing me. I don’t have any interest in getting the flu.

Please do not get sick! Trust me you aren’t missing out! I can’t even describe how I feel. I feel mentally aware but my thought process is extremely slow. Thanks for listening to me you are pretty cool. I think I will keep you around. I like you. I think I am going to go find a hot beverage and snuggle a cat. Until we meet again!

Lots of LOVE,

Fuzzy Pie

P.S. Maybe it is the flu shot apocalypse? Just a thought.

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