Go Hug A Cat For Goodness Sakes!

SPRING  BREAK! Do you realize how amazing that is? Oh goodness I think if I had to live through another day of school I would turn into a puddle of Pie. Let me tell you Pies in puddle form are not as sweet (pudding is different). Now I am guessing you have seen Teddy’s sexy compression socks? They’re are insanely tight, I tried them on and almost died…..I hate socks…..when I was little I would cry whenever my Mom would put them on me. One thing I do to make me happy is to paint my nails. I don’t settle for ten fingers all one shade of a stereotypical red OH NO I paint them all different colors. Why? Because it makes me happy!! Every two weeks or so I sit in on my bathroom floor, listen to my ipod and paint my nails. I started doing this a couple months ago after I was having a truly awful day. I saw someone who had different shades of a color on her nails and I really liked how it looked. Now I look down and see a rainbow of colors ❤ I am honestly quite bad at painting my nails hand me a canvas or a boring wooden box and I will paint just fine.

When it comes to actually coloring (or painting) inside the lines it’s never good. Since I have been sick for 6 years… I have found many a ways to keep my creative side active. Birthdays and holidays come up all the time in life and personally it’s hard for me to think of good gifts…so I end up making them. One present I love to make is a painted wooden box. You can get really low priced boxes at art shops. I paint them on the outside with any color that pleases me. On the inside of the lid I glue stickers of things that remind me of the person.  I use a brush called a scruffy brush it creates a spongy texture to the box. I use plain ol’ acrylic paint and add sparkles if I am in the mood for pixie dust. The bottom of the inside can be a bit dull so I spruce it up with some felt (felt is just a cheap thick fabric). I have made the mistake of using a hot glue gun to glue the felt on and let me tell you…it isn’t called hot because it’s good looking.

I am surprised I still have thumbprints after using it. I know someday I will burn my thumb and the glue will mold my fingerprint into saying ha ha ha whose hot now? Sadly hot glue seems to be one of the best glues ever, that’s why it is called hot.  If someone says that’s hot you just say what like glue? It’s about time the world knew the real definition of the word “hot”. Yes, yes but back to my art projectos! I don’t only make boxes I have found many strange ways to be creative. I made Teddy this AWESOME poster (it’s giant) it is covered with our favorite movies/tv shows/ books pictures and then I have all of our favorite quotes scattered across it. I am a huge fan of designer paper. I buy these big books filled with paper with designs all over it. They are beautiful. What I really like about the paper is that I can use it for so many different things. When I have a project due in school I tend to use the really nice paper because it looks like I put a bigger effort into making it.

High school teachers love to make their students do strange projects like short stories about rats stranded on an island! I am not even kidding…in high school I wrote a story about the adaptations of rats…..on a desert island…my life can only go up hill from there right? Back to Teddy, in college her dorm door was (a snore) it had this boring sign that said her name on it and where she came from….so I got my designer paper out and made her a new one. Mine is way better. It is sparkly and perdy. I bought all of the stickers that have things in common with her life like the beach, books, tea, flowers, plants, reading, horses, cats etc and I put them on Velcro so she could rearrange them. Her name is in sparkly blue font and it is inside a mini frame. I was quite proud of my work. Another thing I love to do is make jewelry I do a lot of wire wrapping techniques. I make a lot of earrings but ironically I don’t have pierced ears.

I just love making them and seeing my friends and family member’s happy faces when they open them. That’s what I find amazing about art projects you can make someone something that they will love. How awesome is it to make something that you are proud of? For any person with a chronic illness ( or without a chronic illness! Or even a plain ol’ cold) it can be really hard to fill up your days with activities that don’t make you exhausted. On some hard days even lifting a paintbrush seems like climbing a mountain. So, take lots of breaks and pace yourself. It’s okay if you are too tired to go to the movies with a friend (it’s a bummer but you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do) Instead of going to the movies maybe call them to keep up (that’s how I have kept my friends through all of these years) Or have them over to hangout for a short visit so you don’t crash the next day. Rent a great movie that you have been dying to see, take a nap in the sun, make a smoothie, practice cooking, PAINT, write a blog, sing, dance, yodel, watch funny youtube videos, call your friend, act, create a magnificent castle on sims, play dress up, take pictures, take a bubble bath, go for a walk, or talk to your cat (I am not even kidding TALK TO YOU’RE CAT! Why? Because sometimes you just need someone to talk to. Honestly your cat doesn’t care what you are talking about as long are you are talking to him.) This is you’re life and sadly you might come to the point where your fuzzy cat is the best you can do for the time being. Appreciate that cat and feed him well and give him snuggles!

Don’t let your days stay empty! Empty days can seem limitless while you are in the chronic black hole of nothingness. It can be as small as a cat but if it makes you happy then that is what matters in the end. Stay happy. Being happy will be your best medicine. You’re cat might think he is the best medicine…if you don’t have a cat you should go get one from the pound…and if you are allergic (like me) get one anyway ( I have three cats in case I am having a bad day and two are sleepy/grumpy, then I still have a cat to love). So, what you have learned in this blog post is to be happy, eat cheese (wait did I seriously forget to put that in the post??!?!?!?!), stay creative, and hug a cat..any cat will do as long as it resembles a cat…I am not sure if chihuahuas count. Be well and be happy 😀


Pie (not pudding)

Free-writes and Caffeinated Owls


Pie: Hello again 😀 It’s been a while! Thank-you saintly person for reading our blog. It’s really great to know we have people reading this (and hopefully getting some enjoyment out of it too!) The idea for this particular post came out of the blue, in my english class we have 5 minute freewrites (when you write about something for 5 minutes). Now normally I find these so called “freewrites” quite boring they make me yawn and my mind wander back to my warm bed. This freewrite was different. I started pouring out phrases that really made no sense while I was writing them. Like the  Beatles said,

“Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.”

I’m not trying to say my words hold a candle to theirs, but my words came out freely. When I wrote my freewrite I realized that the experiences that I was making up were actually my experiences in dealing with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. It was a bit odd to unknowingly write something meaningful without realizing it. This freewrite explains how my life has changed through being sick better than I think I could have attempted to explain through a different approach. Like Teddy explained in her last post about how great writing in a journal can be. Writing can help get bottled up feelings released. Same as reading can, or singing or dancing. Anything that you enjoy to help you not  concentrate on the hard days. The good days are what matters, whether they are often or far between. This freewrite means a lot to me…..It’s hard to post this actually, because it’s really personal. But that’s what this post is about! Being able to relate to one another through realistic experiences. So please enjoy!

I fell into a liquid vacuum. It sucked me up and rearranged my way of thinking. I forgot how to remember, I lost my way, I fell into the nothingness, I sunk into the sky, I dropped my heart and I ran forwards and was pushed back. Sinking into the cold eerie light underneath my leather footwear. No explanations, no destination. The only options, to keep moving, keep pushing, and to keep trusting in the nothing of the everything. I was left to exist, but I chose to defeat. Defeat the choices I was forced to make. Choices that are made for you are lies in disguise. Reasons masked up to look correct and right. Lies were fed to me by the hands of an imposter I call sickness. I’ve forgiven but I have yet to forget. It’s unlikely they did the same. In my heated anger I became unfamiliar to my own recognition. I lost what I knew and forgot what I wasn’t. Sickness views and watches what I have become. A child left to fight off an invisible force. Mechanical and robotic they attempt to destroy, while I fight to live. I beg you to do the same. Their masks will dissolve and reveal their vulnerability. No mask will be found upon my soul. They have ripped mine off to leave me raw and unprotected. I have a world to gain and nothing left to lose. What if I refuse, refuse to be their ideal victim? Will their galaxies fade and their motivation turn to dust like mine did? A ticking clock will be my answer. I am more powerful than these masked terrors. I will leave them like dust in a bloodthirsty desert. I will say to them, ‘How does it feel to be defeated by your prey? No longer will you control me! I have fought and I will win. Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome I will defeat you. I will reclaim my wishing stars, dreams, loves, aspirations, hopes, beliefs, values, heart, mind, soul, body, independence, strength, being and life. I will never be fooled by your cruel ways again.’

So, thats what a freewrite is! Now if someone says do you know what a freewrite is? You can say PSH YES! This post is a tad too depressing for me. I am sorry if you were wanting to read something more entertaining. My point in this post is for you to keep the bigger picture in mind. Even though I am still struggling with this sickness I am not letting it take over. POTS will not win because I won’t let it. This is the same thing for anyone fighting a disease or sickness. Keep an open mind, and enjoy the life you are given. For better for or worse we are all unique. This is something that has changed me and helped sculpt me to the person that I am and will become.

I am going to totally copy Teddy and put in a funny video at the end of this (serious) post. Because our blog is about making the best of a hard situation! As you know, Teddy and I are HUGE animal lovers so when we came across this video it was an instant hit. Teddy and I quote movies, videos, books, and t.v. shows like it’s going out of style. This video holds some of our favorite lines to quote. My Mommy (yes I said Mommy ❤ ) even quotes it. She will say ALLAN ALLAN ALLAN around the house if she wants to get a laugh out of me 😀

Honestly who doesn’t love dentist monkeys, Michael Jackson birds, a good game of nighttime daytime, beat-boxing chipmunks, consciences, and caffeinated owls? They are a must in my household! Thank-you once again for reading my fellow blogger! Have a splendiferous day!!