Pie: Well that was quite fun, taking AIM tests are very pleasant. Why don’t I wake up at 6 every morning every morning just to take a three hour test I wonder. I might have to think about that one. I hope that you are having a lovely morning….afternoon….evening….night? I don’t really know the time my apologies. Well clearly I had AIMs this week, I am trying to exceed on them (fingers crossed).Waking up early this week kind of made my body shut off. By the time thursday rolled around I had chills and thought I was going to throw up. But on the bright side my alarm didn’t work today so I got to sleep and I stayed home, which was honestly just lovely!!! It’s been a fun few weeks of school though! Lot’s of laughs. The other day my friend and I were reading outside during our english class and some of the boys were outside too and it was one of the most hilarious things to listen to “boy gossip”. We were dying of laughter! You would think that girls are the ones who gossip but I assure you that is not the case. If you have never heard boy gossip I highly recommend it, it is very amusing.
Teddy: By the way, AIMS are a standardized test used in certain states to figure out how intelligent the low life high schoolers actually are in the public school system. If you “exceed” you can garner scholarships. If you fail, well, guess you’ll have to take it again won’t you? It’s like the Groundhogs day of schoolchildren. It repeats itself over and over again 😛
Pie: Exactly! Thank-you, oh kind one. I exceeded on 2 and passed the other two but I almost exceeded on all of them you see!! It was heartbreaking to not exceed on all of them. I am actually a tad distracted because I just read Teddy’s latest post and she had a link to rain noises. They are DIVINE! Oh my goodness It is a bright sunny morning and I am in my own crazy little bubble. I have a new favorite song that my darling Teddy showed me (wow I miss you a lot Teddzies because I am only talking about you……. ❤ )
It’s a really touching song, she showed it to me while I was reading the book series Hunger Games and it seems to fit the story perfectly. It’s one of those songs that I want to paint to. It also makes me want to drift into a perfect dream. A dream where nothing exists except the melody that has captivated my heart and soul. Yes, a song can do this. I believe songs can do many great things that we can’t even fathom in our state of mind. I am normally drawn to very slow sad songs, because when I was a napaholic I would listen to music that took me on the journey to sleep. My favorite thing is when I am completely asleep but for some reason one song slips through the barrier of dream and reality. It’s a magical moment that is hard to describe unless you have experienced it.
Music is one thing that I can remember during my sickness. I can remember the books on tape I read and the melodies I slept to. Sadly, some of my years are lost to my memory. I don’t really remember much of the end of 4th grade, 5th grade is completely gone I can only remember a couple vague memories. 6th grade was much clearer than 5th that’s for sure, but I can’t remember a ton of it. Sometimes it gets me really upset but I am just happy I am in a different place now. I know how it feels to lose bits and pieces of youth but I also know that I have gained new strength that I didn’t have then.
If you are like Teddy and I, and you rest a lot and are in reality quite sick I recommend listening to books on tape. It’s not cheating to listen to a book opposed to reading it! It’s like watching a movie in your brain except all of the visuals are created by your imagination. The Harry Potter book series is FABULOUS on tape! So is a Wrinkle In Time, The Cay, Anne of Green Gables, Tom Sawyer, and I am sure Hunger Games is great on tape too. Basically any great book is going to be pretty fricken amazing on tape. Get that old BOOM BOOM box out from the garage and go where few have gone before. You will be taken to a new land. I have been on many adventures without leaving the four corners of my room. So technically I do remember those lost years but in a completely different sense than how others would. I lived in Avonlea with Anne, I was standing next to Harry when he destroyed the horcruxes, I trembled when I walked with Meg up to “IT” to save Charles Wallace, I’ve taken trips in the magic tree house, and I have helped Tom Sawyer paint a picket fence. I went on all of these adventures with my beloved pillow who has gotten my through many hard times. I just want to share with you all of the adventures I have taken, and I hope someday you will take them too. If you aren’t well enough to have your own adventures in the real world have your adventures in your mind. Because your mind has no limitations of health or anything else for that matter. You can be whatever you want to be there. No rules to control you, no regrets to keep you back, all you need is a little push in the right direction.
Teddy and I really just want you to get through this as easily as possible. We don’t want you to be alone through this. Because at times Teddy and I were alone during this illness and we didn’t know how to maneuver our way out of the pit. It’s not fair, and trust me I know it. I know it all too well how unfair this struggle can be. Whether you have POTS, anxiety, a cold, or any chronic illness imaginable it is a hard journey. I hope through our blog you can get a little comfort in knowing that you are never alone. Even if we know you or not we want to make sure you know that we want to help you though this, because when it is all said and done sometimes you need someone to give you a hand through life. We are offering you two sets of hands to hold during this 🙂 I hope you have a day filled with good health, yummy food and fuzzy cats.